Letter number: Two

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It's been so long that i posted my "letter no.1"
Now, I'm about to  post my second one. :)
Actually, it's not easy for me to post such things like this because I don't express my feeling publicly.
I'd rather keep it inside and become only my own thoughts and  reflection.
But, sometimes, i think we need to reveal some parts of  our thoughts.
Not because we want all of the people to know it, but it's because we need to make our heart feel relieved.
Sometimes i think i keep too much things inside and save it for my own.
I'm not complaining about that. I like it, though.
I already get used to with it. I used to solve my own problem by myself.
And I did it really well.
But, deciding to post this letter here, is just to make whoever you - who is reading this posting right now - understand the life from my perspective.

I have come to this far. My 20th birthday had passed several days ago. You can say that it's time for me to enter the adult world. Then one question came up in my mind, "what will i do from now on?"
I feel like I'm entering the world in where i should stand alone. It feels like the world demand me to be tough.
Every single of my friends who knows me well, will say that I'm really strong. It's true. Yet, one thing that most people didn't realize is deep down inside, every girl is still fragile.
When you look only from the outside package you will only see the figure that is shaped by the experience and persistence that is built by my own. It's only when you look closely, then you can see what it is like.

In this life, we might facing the similar problems more than one time. The thing that might be re-occur could be like love-life problem. One thing that i realized from my love-character is that it's not easy for the boys to steal my heart. Yet, from what had done in the past, the one who steal it doesn't even know that he has it. It's really a pity.
I don't really express my feeling well, yet it's impossible for me to tell what's inside. Then, it ended up being hanging up that i believe will soon fade with time.
Well, i always questioned how long will it take? To be honest, I don't even know the answer.
One thing that i believe is when the right one has appeared in front of me, with him I'd be able to do what i couldn't do before.
For the past of mine, i once heard a quote that i remember at most:
"Maybe we should meet the wrong one before meet the right one so that, when we finally meet the right one, we will know how to be grateful for that."

:)

Letter number: One

I played song randomly from my laptop. And this song is played. All of a sudden, it brings back my memories of the past..
For a while, i wondered...   What if I meet him again. What should i say? How should i react?
I once said that he'll be no longer than a memory of the past. The things that has given me the taste of bittersweet in life. I never regret it. No, i don't.
It gave me many things to learn. Many things that once helped me to grow up. Be mature.
I realized, life is only once. There's no such a time machine exists that can bring you back to the past. At that time, my friends pointed out my wrong of this and that. But, you can't deny that destiny is all that makes it happen.
I've heard many phrase or proverbs from the wise men. But one that is really attached in my head is the following one.
"In three words, i can sum up everything about life: It Goes On"
I just want to face my head towards the sky and see how big this world is.  I just wanna see the world. Leave the cage and spread my wings. Even if i fly with a scar still on me, I'll bring it along. Because that's also the mark that can show that I'm alive. I feel sad, i feel happy, i feel free, that's the things that shows you're a human. And I'm happy i can feel such a different feeling and color in my life.


"but if later I'll be remembered again about you, i just can keep in my mind that everything was in the past. For me, It's still a sad song, until i can sing a new song . ."

First Day of My Life

So I found a reason to stay alive
Try a little harder, see the other side.  
Talking to myself - Too many sleepless nights, 
Trying to find a meaning to this stupid life.

I don't want your sympathy, Sometimes I don't know who to be.  

Hey what ya looking for? No one has the answer - 
They just want more  
Hey who's gonna make it back?  
This could be the first Day of my life 



Hey You Guys,  Apa kabar? :)
Firda is HERE!!! hahaha...  It is really my brand new blog.. this is the first time i ever made a blog, actually.. and still not really sure what I'm about to say..
But, for me  myself, i think that if you cannot say it in words, then say it in a song..
:))


Do you happen to know that song above?
it's from Melanie C, member of Spice Girl, titled First Day of My Life
Ga ada alasan khusus sih kenapa gw pilih lagu ini jadi my first entry
it's just because i think this song represent my new existence di dunia perblogging-an right now..
huehehehe . .

so, keep watching for my entries to come !!
Annyong !!
^^v